Friday, March 25, 2005
blablabla... headache, dunno what is right and what is wrong now... the problem is existent but looks non-existent... does it lie with me or others? Can I open my heart and see the light? does the problem just lie within me? Can i by myself change everything without their help? Have i done my best, so the problem lies with them? do they even understand? is it really them who really should learn to be more sensitive? DOES THE PROBLEM LIE WITH ME OR THEM? wat a big headache... dilemma... i see green easily... maybe coz i didn't expect thgs to turn out this way right from the beginning of day 1... haiz... god tell me wat to do now? answer my questions first... there's a super big knot in my heart... and guess wat? there's pus growing at that pimple... can't sit properly... and no wonder it was so painful...want to hurry get rid of it... glad i hv handed up all hols hw and files... yea!!! and hope my hw will not go back to square 1 and start piling up again... always like that one... haha... jiaxin, charlotte and melissa yeo gave me a 1.5 month belated b'day prez... pinko heart cushy with two flappy arms... so cute and shuang... veri nice to hug... heehee, thx... mon syf ppl get to leave early at 10 plus... so unfair... then my row later jayne dunno go where again, then joan and jiaxin go syf, four tables,3 blank then only i 1 person sit there... so lonely and sianz... wonder if hy and cl can move over for the last half of mon... hope so... veri happy today... coz got prezzie... oh, and i'm not dead though slaughtered at 10.30am today, i've been reincarnated from a cow's spirit to a girl's spirit and am 21 years old now... married to a 22 year old man who is jiaxin, my loveliest 老公... oficially and legally... hmm... is yan neng serious or kidding??? bla bla bla... dunno wat the hell is going on...Meiyan fell in love on 10:15 AM.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
heyz... so long nv blog... many things going on... my mind's in a whirl... i'm not me, i'm not myself... but i didn't choose that fate... i dunno wat to do now... i tink by the time i graduate from rv, i'll have no more tears in my eyes... dunno wat to say, do, cos i'm feeling sad, sad and happy once in a while... but is that what life is supposed to be? i hate going to my clsrrom, my school... really... i only like my cca... i've definitely recovered from "tat",put it past me, inside some corner somewhere it has been buried, but i'm now faced with a worse problem that has existed from the beggining of 2005 and may last till the day i graduate... =(Meiyan fell in love on 12:38 PM.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
hmm... i'm a tv addict... and it's hard to bottle up ur feelings, coz some day some time, u'll just burst out crying and u can't explain why... i do feel sad, feeling left out in 3e, feeling left out around hy and cl at times... but i dunno wat i can do, it's a horrible and bitter feeling inside... and i realize my mum and dad are beginning to lose their trust in me... the fact that i got a 18 for L1R5, my mum wants to talk to me about my future... she expects me to get 6 to 7... she says at this rate, i might not get into jc at all--dropout- or even if i did, i'll only get into jurong jc or smting like that... so she wants me to attend tuition for more than 1 subject... and my dad and mum doesn't like me using the com, and listening to music (while using the com), they just don't understand... my brothers aren't making thgs any better, they like to 火上加油... i seriously dun tink i'll be granted my wish to go to Japan... coz they are displeased that i did so badly for my academics... my mum will nv get over the fact that i failed grade 5 prac... my dad has never felt that piano was of any use to me... great, my mum is telling me to stop using the com coz she has yet to discuss with me about my future... haiz... the meet-the-parents session should nv have happened, coz my mum has been wanting to talk to me since she returned from it... wonder wat chen said to make her have such a bad impression of me... bad... very bad... but glad my grade 5 theory exam is over, was today at 10am... heyz,and i like the sentosa pictures a lot... geez... Jailbreak rox! It's the best thing that ever existed and happened in my life, will never forget the innocent and happy days spent , even though it's only 2 years...Meiyan fell in love on 11:05 AM.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
do i get any more belated b'day prezzies??? Joyce got such a cute pig today... so cute lor... anw, wat did i want to type? hmm... i rmb liao, i wanted to say i did badly for ct, got 18 for L1R5, btw, r we allowed to use 2 humans subject in the L1R5? think i need tuition liao... haha, my sis learning violin, hvn't started yet, want to learn from her... yea! campfire for candlelite night!!! great!!! Anybody decided on going to Japan oredi? Or anybody going Taiwan or New Zealand?Meiyan fell in love on 3:00 PM.
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
anoher week gone, i like fridays, coz u noe the weekend sat and sun is finally here... u get to relax, and play... less homework, less stress... well, my celebration comes after 12th march... once my piano grade 5 theory is over, it's time to really slack and celebrate... and then, i wonder how the ug camp will be... tough? fun? well, kf nd fp ally, yea... my old patrol and new patrol, getting on fine in kf, kind of miss fp... hmm... anw, look forward to candlelit night, the most enjoyable part of the whole camp... =) hehe... gave st the heart cushion with a built in radio today even though her b'day is only on sunday, but give earlier better than belated... so cool, was listening and airing it on the way home... of course, st took it home lah... so sad, wish i could play with it more... and where's the neoprint?(i noe i hvn't pay, coz i dunno how much and who to pay) then yesterday managed to pass 2.4, finally, yea! tink i going to die, L1R5 damn high... hvn't actually calculated yet... well, anw, i tink i may have a mental breakdown anytime... going bonkers with myself...==... poor jiaying, fell down today... wish u a speedy recovery...=)Meiyan fell in love on 12:12 AM.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
been feeling really mixed and down this past week... cried almost ev'day... and can't really explain it... it's more than one matter... it's several, want to go back to my innocent days with sherry and shit back in jailbrk... but giving the presents to beiru and jiahui, shopping for the gifts with shit... doing the cards with sherry, hearing the contagious laughter of jt's... these brighten up my school life... haiz... too many things happening, and i belive, misunderstandings. gonna try not to think too much, stressed up too... but it's quite fun studying sometimes coz it keeps u off unnecessary thoughts and u laugh instead of cry... =) tmr's another jailbrk outing, really excited and happy....looking forward to it... geez... btw, hope this misunderstandings will clear up, and may march be a better month. st's gonna make ic, haha... want to see her spastic photo... tink she better get someone to go with her b4 she messes up over there... and happy belated b'day, beiru and jiahui... oh, and JT STILL OWES ME LETTER!!! (dun worry, i'll reply... i'm still waiting) gonna eat dinner liao, gtg, shall stop typing, bb...Meiyan fell in love on 12:00 PM.
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